PATENTBEAUTY-

patentbeauty @ 2009-02-20T19:50:00

2009-02-20T11:50:00Z

24 JANUARY 2009. the end of our story.

i know its pretty long since that day. its been 27 days but i still cant get over it. Maybe things are better now in the sense that im not crying my eyes out every single time. maybe occassional tears but im stronger than i used to be. its really funny how things got out of hand like that. i guess this will be my last post on this blog. this blog filled with our wonderful memories. somehow, he will always be that important person. he will always have a place in my heart. i didnt expect to be feeling it so badly after so many days. i guess he has gotten over it and it pains me to know so. somehow there is this nigging feeling that maybe it was just a game to him but then again, i believed in him and i still do. im sure it was as important to him. but i dont know why. that feeling just wont go away. i really miss him. i really do. i keep hoping that maybe someday he will come back but i know that is impossible. im trying to stop myself from hoping. its just so difficult. things can just change overnight and it really scares me. so fast.. i guess once i take my things back, i would be officially be out of his life. im afraid that he will forget me.. if he could get over it so fast, does it mean he can forget me as well? i just hope thats not true.. i dont know. for now, i have to pick myself up because this entire year started off on the wrong foot and i feel like my life is entirely pathetic. im hoping that things will pick up. and i want to do well as well. for him.. i love you ching, now and always.

goodbye.

patentbeauty @ 2008-12-20T14:05:00

2008-12-20T06:05:36Z

darling is in indonesia now. they just arrived a few hours back. he gave me a call but that damned fucker wy kept asking him to not call me. i already let baby go and yet he still has to oppose me. honestly, he should burn in hell. anyways. five whole days i wont be able to see darling. dont know how to survive. really want him back fast. its too long. though vietnam was longer, but it wasn't as bad. guess i love darling too much now eh? also without him here, i have to face this family all by myself and the feeling sucks. i really need him so much. he is like my confidant and almost like my bestfriend. D: last night we attended his cousin's wedding dinner. it was really grand and i felt like a part of their family. all of them treated me damn well. (: thank god for baby and his family or else i wouldnt be here. haha i probably wouldve jumped off some building or something. hmm after the wedding dinner ended, at about 12. we went to catch a midnight movie with his cousins and the girlfriend. was pretty scared about getting into trouble but since its baby's last night here, i dont care. i'll probably get shit later. we played at the arcade before watching yes man. baby played DDR just to make me smile though he was quite embarrased. (: i really love him like nuts. after the movie, dad said i had to take cab straight home. it was about 4am. first time ive been out till so late. wanted to go home, change and go with baby to send him off. but parents would be furious. so we stayed downstairs and talked till 5 plus. honestly, i feel really bad about not being able to send him off. but i will definitely fetch him back. i really really really need him. he is like my constant source of motivation. he keeps me going when i feel like giving up. now that he's not here, im starting to go nuts. five days seem so long. too long, in fact. please hurry back, ching. i love you.

patentbeauty @ 2008-11-16T04:17:00

2008-11-15T20:20:00Z

hello all. im still up at this hour because mr poh refuses to sleep. stubborn kid. hmm ill be flying to vietnam in about 12 hours. time pass really fast and ill be leaving mr poh soon. hopefully everything goes smoothly. ill miss you mr poh! although i scold you a lot, i still love you! must take care uh!

~~byebye Singapore!~~
hello Vietnam!

patentbeauty @ 2008-11-11T10:08:00

2008-11-11T02:33:17Z

its early in the morning at 10.09am! im supposed to be with the ocip team rehearsing. but am down with flu and cough. sorry mates! anyways. let me backtrack a little and update you on my boring life! :D

9 NOVEMBER 2008!
met up with korkor and mummy at paragon. as usual, i was late. heh so i took a cab. the uncle was pretty funny. he kept talking and talking. he thought i didnt understand mandarin so he tried his best to speak in english. after a while i asked," uncle, yao dao le ma?" meaning are we reaching? haha then he continued speaking in mandarin. funny guy. (: anyways. met korkor and mummy. then went to swensens for lunch! oh by the way. a little background info. my mummy is muslim and she's not related to me. she looked after me since i was 28 days old, all the way till i entered primary school!!!! she's like a second mom to me. like duh~ haha korkor is obviously mummy's son. and he's about 30+ all of them treat me really nice. :D

swensens was yummy! i had the ribeye steak. if im not wrong. not bad luh. haha you can go there and try it some time! :D then talked about many things! went on to shopping around the area. we ate haagen daz ( not sure about the spelling ) after that. oh so yummy cookies delight! hahaha i loveeeeeeeee it! we went centrepoint to shop. and korkor bought me an everlast watch. i think its pretty! i got it in white. (: my favourite colour. haha we went on to GAP and i saw a skirt there. its kinda pretty but the price is pretty as well. haha a whooping $99! korkor said he will buy it the next time. haha they dropped me off at plaza sing to meet baby after that.

some words to mummy & korkor:
it was great seeing mummy and korkor after such a long time. and thank you so much for everything! my childhood was created in such a magnificent way with so many happy memories, thanks to mummy. i really thank you with all my heart. i love you mummy and korkor! :D

met baby after that. showed him my watch! and i asked him if he want to buy also. cause its only $29. haha so we walked back to centrepoint to get the watch. baby got his in black instead. haha so we have the same watch now! aww~ :D continued walking cause i didn't want to go home so fast. saw many people in town. including softball juniors. i miss you guys! :D walked to far east after that. was planning to look for my bookstore! haha in the end, we started shopping.-.-|| as usual, i succumbed to temptation. i bought a dress. haha. its pretty! :D saw leah when i came out of the dressing room. stunned. haha she encouraged me to buy the dress as well. after that, baby and i left. went home sweet home! :D

mummy &i

korkor!

check out kor kor's specs! :o

the GAP skirt

the dress i bought. :D

baby with my cap!

our watches!

i love you.

patentbeauty @ 2008-11-08T23:15:00

2008-11-08T15:21:24Z

FEELING BLUE WHILE IM TRYING TO FORGET

THE FEELING THAT IM MISSING YOU

on a lighter note, tmr ill be having lunch with korkor and mommy.
havent seen them since hari raya. :D it'll be a blast.
probably see baby after that. am excited much.

patentbeauty @ 2008-11-07T23:45:00

2008-11-07T16:01:38Z

PESSIMISM IS BAD FOR HEALTH!

I NEED TO CHILL OUT!

honestly, i may seem like a super happy-go-lucky person on the outside. but im actually a pessimistic fool deep down. i guess its due to a whole lifetime of being disturbed? i dont know. perhaps those people might have been joking, but sometimes they have to understand that by joking too many times, a person might not be able to take it. or maybe im just too sensitive. my friends joke around with me but sometimes their jokes hurt. i guess i just cant stand being disturbed too many times about the same stuff. especially when my family also touch on the same topics. you might think im over-sensitive. but i dont really care cause i cant help being that way. sounds bitchy~ anyways being pessimistic really sucks cause i would keep degrading myself and be super low self-esteemed. ive totally no confidence in myself. an irony, you might think. considering the fact that im so thickskinned most of the time. but seriously, thats just my outer personality. deep down, im a super insecure person. haha which is why its funny how i got to be with baby. he is a super optimistic person. im probably the most pessimistic person he has ever met. thats why i need to chill out! its tiring for both of us when im super pessimistic. in a way that i would always think of all the negative stuffs and start having mood swings, which would make him kind of irritated as well. im always fearing this and that. always thinking of what a sucker i am. how others are way better. thats probably why i cant be a good leader as well. but thats beside the point. the problem is that by bottling up all the insults ive received throughout my whole life, i end up being pessimistic and that affects the people around me, especially baby. thats why ive resolved to change. to become more optimistic. i dont want the two of us to have any more conflicts on my stupid mood swings. i guess being more optimistic would also give me a brighter perspective on things. i would be more cheerful most of the times and baby would also be happy. im thankful to him for being able to cope with stuff. but this is just the beginning of our relationship. the road is still long and its out there for me to take my time to change. im seriously hoping that under baby's influence, ill become more optimistic because seriously, PESSIMISM CAN BE SUCH A PAIN! its really tiring to think sometimes. :x what a long post but i just felt like typing that out.

~~PESSIMISM BE GONE!~~

OPTIMISM SHALL BE MY NEW FRIEND. :D

patentbeauty @ 2008-11-07T18:11:00

2008-11-07T10:36:40Z

PICTURES FROM YESTERDAY!

act cute TTM!

im so white! shock.

ignore me= PINCHING TIME! HAHAHA

TODAY 7 NOV 08! YIJUN IS A JJC-IAN. for 1 hour. :D

morning as usual, baby woke up late again. haha so he was late to meet his group and he blamed me. what an asshole right. haha anyways met him at chinese garden then changed into the jjc OWEN shirt. haha i seriously love green. then we took cab to his school. the uncle took a wrong turn. in the end, cab fare $7+ like what the hell la. lol oh baby made breakfast for me. plus he brought water as well. so sweet luh! got hello panda for me also. :D thanks sweets!

saw beloved lala. after so damn long. quite awkward with all his friends around. haha but their funny people. saw lala's darling too. haha wah he is super handsome luh. haha lala has damn good taste. haha so do i! ;p anyways after he handed in his stuff, we rushed down to school. cause i was super late for ocip meeting felt really bad but honestly, it was bloody boring. haha lucky john & grape was there or else i wouldve died from boredom. haha then attended twin's presentation. she did well. proud of her. :D & now im at baby's house once again. we want to play ball but need to wait for his mom to ask wheres the pump! play play play!

in the cab.

open your eyes la!

on the bus to clementi

act dao~

hello! new student from jjc. :D

smile sweety. :D

i realise ive been spending these few days with baby at his house. haha its kinda unhealthy to spend all my time with baby, some people might think. but dont worry, cause i wont get sick of you sweety. being able to see you everyday makes me love you even more each time! 7 i still cant help wondering what a great boyfriend ive got. am really lucky to have such a handsome boyfriend as well! plus point! haha thanks for everything baby. :D

;all i ever think about is you
you got me hypnotised,so mesmerized

patentbeauty @ 2008-11-06T22:05:00

2008-11-06T14:14:56Z

THE CUM GONG COUPLE. :D

i just came back from baby's house. heh something very funny happened. when i board 76 and the door closed, i realised that my card was left with $0.26! :o GG. haha & i only had $3! so i used my one dollar to pay for the bus ride. then i faster called baby and ask him for help. haha lucky he remind me about the one dollar that he threw into my back this afternoon.

THE IRONY!
haha cause in the afternoon, baby paid for our prata then there was a dollar change. he asked me to keep it but i didnt want to cause i told him to keep it in case next time he needs it for a bus ride when his card no money. haha in the end, i was the one who needed the dollar for a bus ride. :x shall upload pictures taken today, tmr!

THANKS FOR EVERYTHING, MY CUM GONG BOYFRIEND. :D

oh & tmr ill be a jjc-ian for an hour. :D will be going to baby's school to hand in his I&R before going to school for ocip meeting. baby making breakfast for me. heh thanks baby! :D i love you! oh & all the best twin! for tmr's OP.

patentbeauty @ 2008-11-06T16:14:00

2008-11-06T08:25:30Z

i swear i have the lamest boyfriend on earth. we were just listening to usher's burn.
& he asked me, " where's usher now?"
so obviously i was like," how i know?!"
being as lame as he is," IN THE CINEMAS LA! taking the ticket. :D"

oh boy..

patentbeauty @ 2008-11-05T19:34:00

2008-11-05T12:10:38Z

POH HUAI CHING IS NUTS!

haha he keeps making car noises and just keeps going nuts. haha i think he's going through some sort of difficult phase cause i kept ignoring him. :D we've been watching HSM. haha but the thing loads damn bloody slow. it is youku.com hahaha so lousy! tsk. anyways im soooo sleepy. will be leaving his house soon to go home. :( i dont like leaving sweety. haha but no choice. if only can stay at his house. so near school somemore. hehs SEE POH HUAI CHING! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU KNOW! tmr's sweety's OP day. all the best baby. i know you can do it. just cut down on the singlish k. :D jia you!

idiot playing his game.

ignoring me. ):

after dota, still play psp!

got so fun meh!?

finally!

making his weird noises

crazy baby!

im drunk? hahahahaha.

;i'm falling more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

patentbeauty @ 2008-11-05T17:03:00

2008-11-05T10:09:33Z

4 NOVEMBER 2008 & his virgin berms!

OP is finally over! hurrayyyy. haha no more freaky presentations! hmm i did pretty well i guess. compared to the last few times. stumbled a few times only. Q&A was ok but i coldve said more. haha i only gave one example. but WHO CARES?! its over. :D samuel & hy's questions were pretty screwed up. the examiners asked, " how much do you think the CEO of a social enterprise should be paid?" hahaha thats like wtf! how would we know. haha ohwells, theres still I&R and the GPF to do till the end of PW. :D

met up with darling after that. went to the hong kong cafe before that at kovan. the food seems good! one day we shall go there ok sweety! haha anyways. watched HSM3 at cine with him. haha had lunch and bought my brownieeeee! :D its super duper delicious yo! haha thanks sweety for buying my brownie! haha

hmm the show was alright. very nice and sweet! honestly i think its pretty cool studying in those american type of environment. haha their classes are way cooler than singapores. haha but the show was pretty meaningful. im sure it gave many of us things to think about. like what we want to do when we graduate and such. do we really want to follow what our parents have planned out for us? or should we go ahead with our dreams? thogh i think our choices in singapore seem to be pretty much limited. we're too sheltered by or parents. haha oh wells, thats some food for thought. :D

went shopping after that. haha baby finally bought his FIRST BERMUDAS! yep, you got it right. its his first berms. haha so this is a day to remember! thanks to my awesome taste, he got himself a new pair of white berms. :D the t shirts went well with the berms but he wasnt used to them. caused they showed his muscles. haha baby was super shy but i thought he looked damn good! haha he was really cute when he was shy. haha continued walking then at far east, saw this dress. the ladies psycho-ed me to bt it but now i really regret it man! i dont think its nice anymore. bahh im always so easily swayed! haha anyways it was really fun case i spend my entire day with baby! haha took many pictures as well! :D baby's a cam-whore! :o just that he hates to admit that. haha

at my house, it was a pretty sad bye bye. cause baby didnt want me to go vietnam. honestly, i dont want to leave baby alone for 11 days as well! hmm also quite afraid that baby wold stray. haha but he assured me he wouldnt. i guess i cant help feeling this way because ive got a really hot and handsome boyfriend! :D he knows he's in high demand but he just hates to admit it. haha hmm hopefully i wont die in vietnam or something. haha cause i still want to come back to baby! and of course my beloved friends and family. :D but with their wishes, im sure ill be fine. and our entire team will come back safe and sound! haha

sitting at wisma slacking before the movie!

cum gong boyfriend :D

omg. im wearing a hairband. -.-

see that sunshine smile!

that plastic bag contains our brownies! :D

after the movie!

my handsome boyfriend & his virgin berms. :D

on the bus back.

i love you sweety!

jiao face. hahahaha

ohkay! finally all the pictures are out. hahaha baby and i had a great day! :D I LOVE YOU!

patentbeauty @ 2008-11-04T21:26:00

2008-11-04T14:26:12Z

today is a great day to remember! poh huai ching i love you more each day! shall update more with pictures tmr! :D check out what deborah said!

DEBORAH; through it all says: (10:18:23 PM)
ehh but you 2 very sweet tgt! hahah

yijun. phc,youre the only reason im smiling. says: (10:18:41 PM)
lol!

yijun. phc,youre the only reason im smiling. says: (10:18:43 PM)
sweet?!

DEBORAH; through it all says: (10:19:19 PM)
yes!! i think you 2 make a sweet couple! hahahah

yijun. phc,youre the only reason im smiling. says: (10:19:43 PM)
THANKSSSS!

yijun. phc,youre the only reason im smiling. says: (10:19:50 PM)
haha prolly cause we both so dark. lol

DEBORAH; through it all says: (10:21:03 PM)
eh yeah actually quite true, your tan very pei!

DEBORAH; through it all says: (10:21:26 PM)
but i think he's quite good looking leh! compared to the guys in sajc -.-

DEBORAH; through it all says: (10:21:35 PM)
sa guys = cmi hahahh

yijun. phc,youre the only reason im smiling. says: (10:21:47 PM)
ahhaha yup. i also think he good looking. hahahaha

yijun. phc,youre the only reason im smiling. says: (10:21:55 PM)
tts why so stressful for me sia!! haaha

DEBORAH; through it all says: (10:22:50 PM)
hahahah don't stress lah

DEBORAH; through it all says: (10:23:11 PM)
he is lucky to have you as his gf (:

yijun. phc,youre the only reason im smiling. says: (10:23:43 PM)
hahahaha

yijun. phc,youre the only reason im smiling. says: (10:23:45 PM)
yes!

sweets, im more than honoured to have you as my boyfriend. once again, I LOVE YOU!

patentbeauty @ 2008-11-04T00:04:00

2008-11-03T16:37:31Z

:D today was a super great day! though it started off kinda bad. i screwed up OP dry run. haha was too nervous. dang~ and to think tmr's the real deal. wish me luck! anyways. to continue with my day. i made baby wait for me an entire 2 hours! :o i feel really bad! & im soooo sorry sweets! he was damn sian at first. but thankfully he brightened up halfway through the bus ride home. hehs. he came up to my house and showered. haha he didnt bathe for like over 24 hours luh! my smelly boyfriend. but still so handsome. ahahahaha. anyways after a while he left to meet KA clan. haha he was over an hour late. I SINCERELY APOLOGISE KA CLAN! :D but then again, my beloved darling made me worried like nuts! hahaha cause i couldnt contact any of his friends. i had a long conver with his mom about him. kinda fun. like some kind of bond. haha aww~ but it was great. glad to know that he is safe and sound. oh and his psp is finally in my hands! muahahahaha. tmr we'll be going for a movie. im excited! our second movie baby! hope its a good one. :D

& so i would like to say these few words:

thanks a lot sweety for forgiving me and having such a BIG heart! haha i know that my little ten minutes cant be compared to that two whole hours. and im really sorry for losing my temper the other time. i promise i wont do that again! :D though maybe promises are meant to be broken? ;p just kidding. but honestly. im glad we didnt let all these bad times spoil our relationship. haha its not even a month yet sweety! we still have a long long long way to go. haha no matter what ill be there for you cause i love you so much! :D 101008 will always be a date to remember! i seriously am thankful to have you, POH HUAI CHING!

;we will make it through as long as we know our love for each other is ever so strong.
nothing's gona change my love for you. cause youre the only love ill ever know.

patentbeauty @ 2008-11-02T14:46:00

2008-11-02T14:46:54Z

rawr. mr poh is spending the night over at his friend's place again. i wonder if we really will be meeting tmr. haha somehow my hopes are sinking lower as time passes by. oh wells. im going to get used to it! & im so not gona emo again! :B

talking to grape really cracks me up. haha he's great company yo! over the hols, will be meeting up with him occasionally to study together. haha perhaps at NUO-WEI-NA again. :D haha really want to play in the bubble thing but grape says only if im wearing heels. haha then ill burst it & we will fall and sick. haha his lameness overkills. hehs. GRAPES RULE YO! :D

;staring out at the rain with a heavy heart.
its the end of the world in my mind.
then your voice pulls my back like a wake up call.
ive been looking for the answers, some where.
i couldnt see that it was right there.
but now i know what i need to know.
because you live..

patentbeauty @ 2008-11-02T11:33:00

2008-11-02T11:33:13Z

grape was asking if his name (kai xiang) sounded very cheena. hahaha

yijun. phc is love. says: (7:28:37 PM)
kai and xiang are common guy names
yijun. phc is love. says: (7:28:39 PM)
lol
yijun. phc is love. says: (7:28:44 PM)
so youre super duper common
yijun. phc is love. says: (7:28:46 PM)
ahahahahaha
yijun. phc is love. says: (7:28:47 PM)
-.-
kaixiang what the hull! says: (7:28:54 PM)
oh shit!
yijun. phc is love. says: (7:28:58 PM)
?!
kaixiang what the hull! says: (7:29:01 PM)
common square
yijun. phc is love. says: (7:29:04 PM)
-.-
yijun. phc is love. says: (7:29:07 PM)
LOL
kaixiang what the hull! says: (7:29:07 PM)
d
kaixiang what the hull! says: (7:29:07 PM)
sighh
yijun. phc is love. says: (7:29:08 PM)
lameeeee
yijun. phc is love. says: (7:29:10 PM)
hahaha

& as you can see. he is common square. hahahaha. ohkayy. mugging mode. 8)

patentbeauty @ 2008-11-02T10:35:00

2008-11-02T10:35:13Z

mugger mode now! 8)
i love econs.
i love econs.
i love econs.
it is not tamil.
it is not tamil.
it is not tamil.

haha got to drill that into my head! argh. i love chapter 4! the song obviously. haha howe yong~! CHAPTER 4 ROCKS! HELL YEAH~! :D alrights. back to mugging... 8)

ps. sweety, psp please! hehs.

patentbeauty @ 2008-11-02T08:02:00

2008-11-02T08:02:00Z

hello hello. its my first time using lj! was planning to sell my stuffs but change of plans. haha

anyways. was talking to wk just now. hmm his nick said " its too late." saw it and then i thought nah. theres no such thing as its too late! then i told him its never too late. haha but then again how would we know? guess it all depends on the circumstances. bah. anyways its not too late for me to start studying now. haha LUEs on 5,6 and 7th january. have to pass these papers to promote. damned! this hols so packed. got to plan my time properly. tsk! i really ought to aim and ace these papers. not just pass them considering the amount of faith my teachers and fellow peers have in me. i want to do them proud! haha hmm i realise i always say that but in the end it all turns out to be empty promises. tsk. but now i really am gona do it because i dont want to waste a year retaining! im gona do well! haha 8) mugger mode yo~!

& im missing mr poh like nuts! please pretty please pass me your psp later! heh. i still love you more than your psp! :D