24 JANUARY 2009. the end of our story.

i know its pretty long since that day. its been 27 days but i still cant get over it. Maybe things are better now in the sense that im not crying my eyes out every single time. maybe occassional tears but im stronger than i used to be. its really funny how things got out of hand like that. i guess this will be my last post on this blog. this blog filled with our wonderful memories. somehow, he will always be that important person. he will always have a place in my heart. i didnt expect to be feeling it so badly after so many days. i guess he has gotten over it and it pains me to know so. somehow there is this nigging feeling that maybe it was just a game to him but then again, i believed in him and i still do. im sure it was as important to him. but i dont know why. that feeling just wont go away. i really miss him. i really do. i keep hoping that maybe someday he will come back but i know that is impossible. im trying to stop myself from hoping. its just so difficult. things can just change overnight and it really scares me. so fast.. i guess once i take my things back, i would be officially be out of his life. im afraid that he will forget me.. if he could get over it so fast, does it mean he can forget me as well? i just hope thats not true.. i dont know. for now, i have to pick myself up because this entire year started off on the wrong foot and i feel like my life is entirely pathetic. im hoping that things will pick up. and i want to do well as well. for him.. i love you ching, now and always.

goodbye.

darling is in indonesia now. they just arrived a few hours back. he gave me a call but that damned fucker wy kept asking him to not call me. i already let baby go and yet he still has to oppose me. honestly, he should burn in hell. anyways. five whole days i wont be able to see darling. dont know how to survive. really want him back fast. its too long. though vietnam was longer, but it wasn't as bad. guess i love darling too much now eh? also without him here, i have to face this family all by myself and the feeling sucks. i really need him so much. he is like my confidant and almost like my bestfriend. D: last night we attended his cousin's wedding dinner. it was really grand and i felt like a part of their family. all of them treated me damn well. (: thank god for baby and his family or else i wouldnt be here. haha i probably wouldve jumped off some building or something. hmm after the wedding dinner ended, at about 12. we went to catch a midnight movie with his cousins and the girlfriend. was pretty scared about getting into trouble but since its baby's last night here, i dont care. i'll probably get shit later. we played at the arcade before watching yes man. baby played DDR just to make me smile though he was quite embarrased. (: i really love him like nuts. after the movie, dad said i had to take cab straight home. it was about 4am. first time ive been out till so late. wanted to go home, change and go with baby to send him off. but parents would be furious. so we stayed downstairs and talked till 5 plus. honestly, i feel really bad about not being able to send him off. but i will definitely fetch him back. i really really really need him. he is like my constant source of motivation. he keeps me going when i feel like giving up. now that he's not here, im starting to go nuts. five days seem so long. too long, in fact. please hurry back, ching. i love you.

hello all. im still up at this hour because mr poh refuses to sleep. stubborn kid. hmm ill be flying to vietnam in about 12 hours. time pass really fast and ill be leaving mr poh soon. hopefully everything goes smoothly. ill miss you mr poh! although i scold you a lot, i still love you! must take care uh!

its early in the morning at 10.09am! im supposed to be with the ocip team rehearsing. but am down with flu and cough. sorry mates! anyways. let me backtrack a little and update you on my boring life! :D

9 NOVEMBER 2008!
met up with korkor and mummy at paragon. as usual, i was late. heh so i took a cab. the uncle was pretty funny. he kept talking and talking. he thought i didnt understand mandarin so he tried his best to speak in english. after a while i asked," uncle, yao dao le ma?" meaning are we reaching? haha then he continued speaking in mandarin. funny guy. (: anyways. met korkor and mummy. then went to swensens for lunch! oh by the way. a little background info. my mummy is muslim and she's not related to me. she looked after me since i was 28 days old, all the way till i entered primary school!!!! she's like a second mom to me. like duh~ haha korkor is obviously mummy's son. and he's about 30+ all of them treat me really nice. :D

swensens was yummy! i had the ribeye steak. if im not wrong. not bad luh. haha you can go there and try it some time! :D then talked about many things! went on to shopping around the area. we ate haagen daz ( not sure about the spelling ) after that. oh so yummy cookies delight! hahaha i loveeeeeeeee it! we went centrepoint to shop. and korkor bought me an everlast watch. i think its pretty! i got it in white. (: my favourite colour. haha we went on to GAP and i saw a skirt there. its kinda pretty but the price is pretty as well. haha a whooping $99! korkor said he will buy it the next time. haha they dropped me off at plaza sing to meet baby after that.

some words to mummy & korkor:
it was great seeing mummy and korkor after such a long time. and thank you so much for everything! my childhood was created in such a magnificent way with so many happy memories, thanks to mummy. i really thank you with all my heart. i love you mummy and korkor! :D

met baby after that. showed him my watch! and i asked him if he want to buy also. cause its only $29. haha so we walked back to centrepoint to get the watch. baby got his in black instead. haha so we have the same watch now! aww~ :D continued walking cause i didn't want to go home so fast. saw many people in town. including softball juniors. i miss you guys! :D walked to far east after that. was planning to look for my bookstore! haha in the end, we started shopping.-.-|| as usual, i succumbed to temptation. i bought a dress. haha. its pretty! :D saw leah when i came out of the dressing room. stunned. haha she encouraged me to buy the dress as well. after that, baby and i left. went home sweet home! :D


mummy &i










korkor!










check out kor kor's specs! :o


the GAP skirt


the dress i bought. :D

baby with my cap!







our watches!




i love you.

PICTURES FROM YESTERDAY!





act cute TTM!




im so white! shock.


ignore me= PINCHING TIME! HAHAHA



TODAY 7 NOV 08! YIJUN IS A JJC-IAN. for 1 hour. :D

morning as usual, baby woke up late again. haha so he was late to meet his group and he blamed me. what an asshole right. haha anyways met him at chinese garden then changed into the jjc OWEN shirt. haha i seriously love green. then we took cab to his school. the uncle took a wrong turn. in the end, cab fare $7+ like what the hell la. lol oh baby made breakfast for me. plus he brought water as well. so sweet luh! got hello panda for me also. :D thanks sweets!

saw beloved lala. after so damn long. quite awkward with all his friends around. haha but their funny people. saw lala's darling too. haha wah he is super handsome luh. haha lala has damn good taste. haha so do i! ;p anyways after he handed in his stuff, we rushed down to school. cause i was super late for ocip meeting felt really bad but honestly, it was bloody boring. haha lucky john & grape was there or else i wouldve died from boredom. haha then attended twin's presentation. she did well. proud of her. :D & now im at baby's house once again. we want to play ball but need to wait for his mom to ask wheres the pump! play play play!



in the cab.


open your eyes la!



on the bus to clementi








act dao~

hello! new student from jjc. :D




smile sweety. :D

i realise ive been spending these few days with baby at his house. haha its kinda unhealthy to spend all my time with baby, some people might think. but dont worry, cause i wont get sick of you sweety. being able to see you everyday makes me love you even more each time! 7 i still cant help wondering what a great boyfriend ive got. am really lucky to have such a handsome boyfriend as well! plus point! haha thanks for everything baby. :D


;all i ever think about is you
you got me hypnotised,so mesmerized